I hate everything about you. Why do I love you?

I don't know how to start this.
I just know I love her.
But she doesn't love me.
She doesn't care about me.
I think I am no one to her.

She is loving.
But she isn't loving me.
She is loving another person.
She is happy.
Should I be happy for her?
Maybe. I don't know.
But I am not happy.
I am feeling miserable.

I met her four years ago at the College.
I just fell in love for her instantaneously.
Red hair, rock style, amazing personality.
She is a good person.
But she is so complicated.
And I'm so nerd.
She is so social.
We are so incompatible. 

I like to be at home.
She likes to be in the streets.
In the shows. At friend's houses.
Although, we are friends. Or I think we are.
But we are not close friends.

Everything I try to do with her don't happen.
She always has an excuse.
She never can do anything with me.
We never go out.
We never date.
We never ever have kissed.
Sex? I don't know what does it mean.

Why do my life have to be so incomplete without her?
I have tried to forget her a million times.
Unfortunately, I can't.
Always I've tried, always I've failed.
It seems she knows when I am forgeting her.
So, she appears and everything starts again.
Why I haven't learned?
Why I always have a bit of hope that will be different?

I want to forget you!
If I can't have your love
I just want to be away from you.
I don't want your company anymore.
Please, I beg you, stop hurting me.
Stop feeding hopes in my heart.
Just go away.
Just leave me alone.

Without your love my heart is just a simple piece of Human body.
Let me try to live.
Let me be free of you.
All I have wished in my life is your love. 
But I think I will never have it.

"I hate everything about you. Why do I love you?"
Three Days Grace

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